能不能够让我们从来一遍
是否对我还有相同感觉
我不想要再对自己抱怨
也不想再狼狈

能不能够让我们回到从前
当那一天当我们还强烈
你说过要陪我走到永远
还是你在敷衍



If only ... You'll get to see this . And reply me all about this post in chinese or hanyupinyin, just right after seeing this and making the effort to do something to salvage this rs ....


But I know you never will get to see this . Takecare

都是我的错。每天到晚不停的争吵，爱闹分手。不珍惜我们在一起的每一分每一秒。
都是我的错。不停的挨打他，骂他。直到失去了才懂得珍惜。

我好难过。没想到一转眼我们真的完了。身旁的人却不知道我有多么的伤心。表面上的我，不是我。真正的我，是没有人能看见的我。我一点也不好受，一点也不坚强。但是为什么你们都在责怪着我？

我真的觉得打是疼，骂是爱。 但我打了却被冤枉。我根本都不是故意，也不很心伤害他。我不知道为什么我总是那么的冲动。当时的我，真的不懂得该如何解释。就静静的让他认定我就是那么的暴力。

我真的无法原谅自己的过错。我真的太过的自私。我不理会他的感受，不好好教训自己。只会有分手来当做借口。我真的好失败。I deserve this ending even though I really wouldn't bear to .

After all those months that we've been though . After all those tears that we shed . Without pain there isn't any gain . Without you there isn't me . Without you helping me through , I would not have move on over him .

I'm speechless when we're like this . Thank you for everything . You deserve someone better . I'm sorry but this will be the last time I'll say this


I love you Ron .

I wonder why i met a guy like him...

1st of July .
Finally all the fucked up shit which happened on the month of June are all over
Time to make a change ;


I'm gonna stay up late tonight to get this blog updated from 2011 Jan till now .
Stay tune.

Happy 6th ,
Love you Ron

Tumblr or blogger ?

Im already on tumblr .& I update more often over there than blogger .

So , should I move to tumblr instead ? It's kind of troublesome to access w blogger when I have to get th URL code for every photo before I could blog w photos. Hmmm ... 

I'm dying to blog this . Happy belated 5th , my love !

Come this far ,

Happy 4th Monthsary ♥

(Arghhh my blog's dying !)

So what if I miss another you ?

Working during the weekdays , boyfriend during the weekends, schooling on the 11th onwards & will stop working by the end of this month .

Will try to catch up with life and my studies very very soon . Just gotta endure for the whole of this month . Will try to update this dead blog often in order to keep it alive .

Time for some celebration for my upcoming 18th birthday . So suck to spend my birthday over at ite college west with all unfamiliar faces there . Not anticipating for it anyway .

☺☮♥

1.38am

Dont know why . Browsing back those photos really makes me feel so lost without you . Having sleepless night soon . I miss you Ron , really miss you so so much . ..

A way to keep this alive ,

Hiiezx . I'm blogging with iPhone . So now I can keep this blog alive . No more emo post because  I don't have to emo when ron's here with me in my life.

Life was rather great to have him around . Especially when I know he's pampering me like a princess . Giving in to me at most of the time , sacrifice his time just to meet me up ,& have got to send me back all th way to sengkang and then ride back to jurong during the cold midnight . I am blessed , to have him as my another half but unfortunately he left for his navy days. I miss him so much , so bad that I can't stop crying for the first night . I need him to know , that I'm sorry for treating him so badly in the past , as I thought I could not move on with my past . Now that I found a better man in my life , who love me more than I do , I'm going to cherish and to wait patiently for every weekend to come as he would be booking out from camp .

I love you Ron , thanks for everything . ♥☮☺