Because I care .

My last post before I'm gone ...

Gone? Where am i going ? Why am i dumping and leave my blog to rot? No of course , I wanna study , to catch up , speed up , real chionggg for my N's (Abit too late i know ) .
But who cares? This is my life :)

Finally , I've got th inspiration to blog from June's . Awesome?Amazing?lol.

Well , me happen to blog-hop, to her blog . Then me read her latest post(indeed a long post) ; expressing her thoughts & feeling on th day when we(friends&clique) were suppose to celebrate her sweeet 16th birthday at our own " 老地方" .Also , she posted th msn conversation between me and her . Seriously ,Me didn't expected , that my mine really took my words into heart , & even felt touched about it . Fyi, me blog whatever me want . Likewise , me talk whatever me feel like saying lor , this is me . So,whatever me said to her on that conversation, is indeed true . True that ;that was how me used to feel . Me really feel bad for forcing her etc , me really ..... ouch , speechlesss. Aiya , me once felt tht way too....
So yup mine , yes , lets stop brooding about it .After N's , okay? :) Smilesss & Sorry....

However , Me'm still sad .

Firstly :June's bday celebration(elaborated above)
Secondly:Photos!
Thirdly: OJY
Fourthly: Studies
Lastly:BGR(not bolded) -,=|||(not again~)


Photos:

Me remembered to bring my camera along for June bday celebrations(like finally) . But who knows , because of my gan chiong-nesss ,me deleted half of what my friendzx and me had took on tht day lehzx .Fyi, me cried because of photos , not him?Hmmm lol. Sounds stupid but indeed, me'm stupid.Seriously speaking , we didn't took much on that day as some unpleasant stuffs happened , so me treasured all th "trying-to-be-fun-time" we had took. Unfortunately .... guess it's fated like what me told Mine lurh ><

(but heng ar , alot of our "SHAKE SHAKE" photos w/ Ass's. So its not really FULLY deleted ^^)
but too bad my mine was not in th fun , :( tsk .

I-Hate-This-Part.
(Coz' currently me listening to this song , :O )

OJY:
It's really very hurting to see you like this . Me dk how to cheerup as i've told ya much on msn (even now) , but at least me's here , for you , OJY .
Trust me , you'll get back your love . Not soon , but perhaps in th future?
We can't be to selfish , to always have what we wanna have . Sometimes , we ought to learn how to let go th one we love . As long as they're happy , why can't we just give them our blessings?Agree?
Love is not 1+1=2 . To me , Love's blind .
Love's selfish fyi . Frankly speaking , idk who i truly love for now (don't be sad to see this) .
But what can i do? Life still gotta move on....

Reminiscing , I'm like your current YOU . VERY DEVOTED IN BGR . I thought , love lasts forever ; But now -Not th right time . I search for cig if I'm down . I thought SMOKING RELIEVE STRESSS. But , i rather you cry than to smoke :')

Not encouraging you to cry , but , how can't i stop you from crying? I'm also a cry baby.I cried for th little things happen around me . I cried , like nobody' business ALL/MOST OF TH TIME.
I shared my past experience w/ you alrdy . Main message to you was - stay strong & persevere through this very "suffering" moment . You can conclude tht no one would ever understand how you're really feeling deep inside etc , but at least , I'm TRYING to UNDERSTAND IT. Sharing my past experience w/ you means nothing . If it do helps , maybe you'll stop crying , & wait patiently . If not , just think of my words while you're crying , & think far ... <3 :')

Don't neglect people who really care about you . Study for th sake of you & your parents.Meetup soon sweeet , me really miss all those days we had spent..

STUDIES:
My mind: ITE
or
even if i' got promoted to sec5= wasting a year . Rather get a pass which is <19 then straight to higher nitec.

"Am i awake? Or still day dreaming away?"





About BGR , can me don't mention about it anymore? Not important anyway .
The fact is : Idk :')

Anyway , I'll only be available on every friday & wkend . Currently not working on Sundays anymore, But SS every SUNDAYSSSSSSSSSS . Gotta start attending the focus study programme(every friday night) . & Yes , I'm stucked @ Avcc Mac during th wkdays w/ Cindy till evening. Doing schworks there instead in sch , :O

&&& My plan for now :
diet . Gym. Kite flying to relieve stress (currently don't feel th stresss :S ) . Study . Emath . Chem . Art ?

Hope it works .

& Mine ,when me read your blog. Idk how to read "敖犬" lehzx, serious swear! :X
Until me saw your profile manzzzzz. HAHAHAH.

Okay byezx!Thanks Mine's blog for inspirations <3
Cheers.


P.s: I to Me .