I used to feel those bubbles and love when I'm with you . But now, I'm feeling the darkness alone . The feeling of missing you is miserable . I tried my best not to grudge about it . I tried letting the feeling fade and go . I tried to keep myself busy at all time just not to think of you when i'm all alone during the night . I tried crying myself to sleep almost every night just right after you left . However , I guess I'm still that stubborn , I still miss you.

I should be happy , seeing you putting in all effort in that relationship . I should smiling wide, while browsing those photos of you and her . I should be leaving you guys alone in both your world but i can't help but to be the influence of you guys.

I'm sorry . I'm trying... Just ignore me and my crap . I'm sucha slut i know. But i hate the feeling of such love triangle , especially when there's the third party involved ...