Ego , pride , friendship, or love?

Okay please . I DONT LIKE MY NAME T BE MENTIONED IN YOUR BLOG .
Yes I'm only 15 going 16 , & yet my childishnesss still caused all this troubles right? Yes my fault , blame me & i shall APOLOGIZE t HER then -,=|||

I seriously can't take it anymore. so here we go .

Your post stated :
she have the sympathy on you yet this is wad you do?whr's the sense of ur feelings?i noe you bother abt me,and i thank you for that.she even noe that you noe me even better than her.at least,she have the feeling of guilty cnscience.whr's yours?she even have the guilty feeling of pulling me away from you guys.and yes!she have the right of being selfish of not letting me belong to anione else!thats when i noe she really love me!listen here!i do still care for MAYLING.but im not yours.I'm Bella's.i dont unds you.and she's not showing some sympathy on her blog,mind you.you cried for me,i realised that.but why now?

So ? You're trying t say that she's not showing sympathy but why is she feeling guilty about? &then u stated she have th SYMPATHY on ME? duhhhh
If she's not showing some sympathy on her blog, then are you trying t say that she's picking on me instead of using th word 'pity' larh .

From Hers:
Partly, I felt wrong. Partly, I felt losing you. Partly, I felt stupid. I really felt mixed up! I've been wondering am I wrong to love you? Am I wrong to miss you? Am I wrong to be jealous? Am I wrong to, idk. It just a start yet this happened. Why must she bother about you? Yes i'm jealous. It really caught my feelings till tears running down my eyes without realizing. I tried to hold back my tears but I can't. Every single sentence even words she wrote was making me even more speechless. From there, it really shown that she knows you even betta than me. I'm not judging anyone here but this is what i felt. Maybe because of me, your friends had their own perceptions by saying those speech. I'm like the one whom pulling you from them. In fact, Idw to side any of you cause' Iknow Idhave the right & I realized that. I'm sorry for making you worried. =/

So from here, this is what i wanna tell you , la la bell bell:
You may be feeling guilty or whatsoever about this matter . But seriously , YOU DONT HAVE TO . It's HIS choice t be with you wholeheartedly & i told him t last long w/ you & move on , & he did . So why are you still afraid about anything or everything about it? IT GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU . It's his responsibility & MY business .
Like what all bloggers used t said:
Th owner of th blog[s] do have th 100% rights t post anything .
So ya ,I got th rights t post anything , regardless of his matters or others etc , & so do you too . I'm not BLAMING you for posting about why must i still be bothered w/ him etc . I'm just not happy afterall :)
I dont want t mention about ur own previous personal r/s stuffs regarding th guy & ur current boyf now , LOL . & please , I DONT WANT SYMPATHY , for me or t his Malay ladies or what so ever , get this clear.

Your first impression for me was pretty alright ,
but after today , .....
who knows ?



I don't blame him for telling me off as perhaps he find me a nuisance now . As for th question about why must i cry for him for now & not in th past? Answer is simple .
In th past , we dk each other well enough & got together just so fast .
So , i started t mention about my ex infront you that make you feels insecure w/ me , as if i'm cheating your love in th past .
You tried all ways t get me t love you WHOLEHEARTEDLY in th past but yet i was still fooling around like nobody business .
Simple enough, simple explanation : Idk how t cherish that r/s in th past .
So now ,I don't ask for you t be back cos' it's too unfair for that poor lil bell of yours :((( aww

So , LOOK HERE .
I will not hang out w/ th malay girls any more i guess, & then i lead back my own way of life .
If You still wants t keep in touch w/ them , please do so .(as i guesss ur gf won't feel anymore guilty for letting you off t meet 'em yea, lol)

I may seem t be hating you for now , but i doubt i would hate you for long.
In fact , you should be th one t hate me seriously ,as for what i did in th past .
Those mean act & evil-ness from me t you in th past , it's like totally a torture for you .
Idk how t think , & just anyhow *&#*^@*%!#*!# .
I sincerely apologize t you , ONLY for tahan-ing me in th past .
& now , you don't have t care anything alrdy ...


I doubt i could still text you or even any bday wishing text t you later on , so
Advance bday wishing t you,Happy 17th Birthday FAHMI .



P.s:I don't have t show out my guilty conscience just by a simple post here .

:')

Stop it , Mayling .
Just my luck ...

& 13th marks th day again,