Am i always the one to blame for this & that ? or You? How about the Others?
No point acting one innocent baby . I had enough . Moreover, i guess i had experienced much more than you do dear.
This is just the start of 2010 , the starting line of the marathon . I really need to make a change , for the sake of MYSELF .
O level , beloved friends and teachers ,& Tp , here i come !
Mummy & Daddy , I'll strive hard for the very best Next this year :)
First step: Tuition.
& Yes i started my first tuition lesson on Saturday with Cindy .
Second step : School.
1)Quit that sleeping habit .
2)Stop talking back to teachers .
3)Stop getting involve with friendship problems which don't get me into the picture at all .lol.
4)& Lastly , No more bgr(s) in Phss.
Had enough to PLAY(best word to describe how i treat my boyfs right) I'm the flirt anyway , :')
Third: Family.
Nothing much to change , just would like to give them th trust that they yearn for . & the hope that they desire on me , just for the sake of my future :)
Last: Personal .
Awww that's like, ALOT TO MENTION , hahahah !
Well , in short ,
-Quit smoking, even though i don't smoke much like before
-Quit drinking , just for th sake of ANTI Beer-Belly.
- Change my attitude .
(Because it sucks , ttm i'know.)
& I guess that thats th main reason why i encountered many friendships problems in the past .So now that I'm left with nothing , I'm gonna change and prove them wrong .
Though Mayling is arrogant , mean , action , straight forward , or even act innocent at times , but she can be real kind , soft hearted , reasonable , & understanding too . (Just that this opportunity comes only once .Or rather it's RARE .)
To you :
You mean alot to me , not just because you were once my lover or etc . I just don't wish to lose a friend like you . As i mentioned , "We are fated to know each other but we are not meant to be together" .
& Yes , this applys to You .
I don't know how to express how much you mean to me . Indeed you mean alot to me . As a friend/ fucker / lover /enemy IDK . I just hope , we could erase all the unhappinesss , & back to the fucker that all of th people out there had known . The fucker that would point th _|_ when we happen to see one another in school , the fucker that would bid goodbye in school/during recess /etc with a 'promise' sign . The fucker that would be there when i'm down, (even though him himself are troubled with problems and would never share it with me :X) The fucker that would have to help many/tons of people to keep secrets( :X). The fucker that would ldjhwfBDVXCBVKASKJQHfaeghrhvcxbSKZbjh in our msn conversation when the both of us are stress/troubled about something . The fucker that will not call me FUCKER , but FCUKER . The fucker who can be real xialan/mean/sarcastic at times but HE DON'T MEAN IT AT ALL.[I know , but i just pretend that he's really being xialan /mean/sarcastic to me . & he's so dumb to fall into my trap , and got accused by me or even take my words to heart :') ]The fucker , who used to be deeply in love with me and commit himself in this "dumb" relationship and even cried for me , just because I'm not serious about that relationship at all in the first place.(But i regretted,always regretting about this & that . So he's already getting USED TO IT.)The fucker who used to hate me to the core(for what i know la.) The fucker who could stand the 7 months without talking to me in schoool!!!!!!!!(Our best record of cold war. But how cute can th both of us be when we're peeking at one another all the time in school !)The fucker , who tried to throw my cigs and got lectured by me at the basketball court where we used to hang out. The fucker , who wrote a very long letter for me for the very first time .( & It's in red fyi.) The fucker , who love RED like me tooo.( &I guess i'm the one that fall in red with red because of him.Because we were once so fcukin' close laaa @*($&(^#&()
Sorry . My way of expressing may be un-readable because of my english standard . But at least i tried , :)
You , I'm sorry . I hope to have your forgiveness . We were to close to be togther ,so it leads no future at all :') You worth a better girl than me , but i don't worth such a perfect man like you .(I'm serious )
恐怕你觉得还没有人发现你的好，但是，我发现得还不迟。也或许是默默人发现了，但也不想跟你表白。
If you were to read this , then good for you .
For those who got jealous about me posting for this one and only special man , then i've got nothing to say . The main intention is , it's just my way of apologizing ..
Not just for him , but for everyone who have got hurt by me before, OPPS
